It's totally pathetic..I'm pathetic. So here's what just happened, sigh.. I just checked my facebook and found out that two guys who I had crush on apparently moving on with their lives smoothly..
I'm suppose to feel happy for them but seriously I'm not.
It makes me realize how they are "moving" and I'm freakin stuck here, with the same old boring situation.
What I did 4 months ago is still the same with I am doing now, which is a complete nothing!! hate this feeling, hate this place, hate..mostly everything.
3 months ago I had the same feeling but then I got a great pep talk from one of my best buddies and it worked! She said that i was just stressed out trying to finish my scientific paper and stuff and I needed to go somewhere to recharge my energy..and I believed it, but thanx to my "emotionaly-distant-father" I have, who told me to get all the things done first then I could go for a vacation.. and here I am whining about how unfair this life can be when people who broke your heart can feel happy while you're the one who'd been hurt end up being the biggest loser.
I hate this situation.I hate facebook a.k.a the heartbreaker.I hate the feeling of missing a guy who lives 3000 miles away from me that doesn't even care of my existance.I hate being alone in this long vacation...I can write thousand things that I hate but i'm too tired to continue. I'm goin to bed now and hoping tomorrow everything will be better, I'll be better.
p.s.: I know i'm really messed up tonight, but one thing for sure, I didn't regret the fact that I just added my 17 years old student on FB because he's totally cute! and I admit it.. I have a bit crush on him. Goodnite people
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